latest update(:

life has been rather irritating these few days.dad will be back fr a week before flying off and mom will be going back to her place to stay and she is behaving like she is so goddam happy nt to be staying here.wtf.and she is fucking showing favourtism uh please!!!i dunno how to explain but ya i jus cant stand the torture of absorbing everything...yup,so far have been really close with my sec sch mates,chilling at nyp and stuff.really fun...hopefully things get bettter.

outing to sentosa

ahhahh...its been ages since i updated my blog..hmm lots of things has been going on regarding my friendship with doulet,oh wells,wad past me by since the start of ite is just the past. i dun wan history to repeat itself and i dun wan to jump into anything so soon. so to my fellow friends out there,im single,ready to mingle but not ready to be attached.hahah...its still too early.

what more i dun think i cn really move on frm my past rship so yeah. its better to stay friends with evryone.

*for pp who want to bitch about us saying that we have been F***ing close recently, its ok:)-oh and im only refering to ONE person,my friends know and i know it too.i wouldnt mind if u read this and wanna settle scores with me,by all means go ahead,there are more pp out there wanting to screw your face.but i have more things to screw you about.hahahha.its mean of me,bt SRY:)i wnt mind u saying..cuz its true.very true infact!that we DO come to sch together and stuff, but we are just friends:) dun think otherwise....

we are jus good frens though we used to bitch about one another,talking behind each other backs.but right now,, its jus childish.hahah. so yeah,might as well forget it.we decided to just be open,share anything and all and yeah,we have been hanging out alot recently like visiting malls aft sch or chill out kinda thing.its cool...but like i said,i dont want history to repeat itself.so im avoiding all situations at all cause tht will make history repeat.haha.the pictures are taken on one of our outings during the hoilday..wen to sentosa,chill out for awhile kinda thing and yup,enjoyed ourselves..

sch wise,so far it has been quite a great start of the term,my clsmates are finally friendly towards me,no longer talking about how fake i am or wadeva jus cuz of the stupid post in cls i was given. yeah my antenas are long.haha. but i can see that i can get along with pp in my cls who i never thought i could.hhaha.

but after the holidays,things mellowed down,people changed,people show their true colours,people finally get along,people fight.but this is all part and parcel of life.there was a period in my ite life wher i really hate going to school because i know who are the exact pp bitching about me so its like each time i step into cls,my feeling wil be like WOAH fuck this place man!...hahahahahah...

luckily now tt things have changed for the better,i very much enjoy school hours with my cls except for my sch's system.hahaha...well its a personal opinion.hope to do well for this last lap and get into a poly,if i cant,private schools are calling me or job opportunities are out there:)hahaha..

loves and smiles alwys:)

F1

LEWIS HAMILTON ROCKS!!!!!!!WHOO!!!!!!

HAHA.F1 WAS VERY VERY VERY tiring....i was practically standing all the way like what the other usherers did...it was madness standing fr 12 hours continuously for 3 days.but watching the race was dam fun.my in charge was horrible.no offence but she seriously need to think on how she is doing things.

meeting patrons from all over the world was awesome.love their friendliness and greet.was perfect to talk to them.obviously there are some patrons who are very arrogant as well but overall,manageable.

first day,no fights or anything chaotic i encountered.second da,encountered a drunk man,and many unhappy patrons who talk abou paying 1488.my god.....was crazy,they cn go on n on.but luckily they were talking to my supervisor.

third day,was fun.no nonsense except for pp dropping their cameras down the grandstand and stuff.everyone was crazy when the results were out...

overall,it wasnt so bad. stil love lewis hamilton.

wad to do...this is life:)

love and kisses to all!

life has been slightly crazier than before.i duno wad to do with my life,and work and everything now.hahhahaah....axel is in the army, bane has his life, daniel's injured, travis wit his work, loraine busy with studies,dad's overseas,mom working everyday,bro has his night life,wow,everyone has things on.

but fr me?holiday-ing, dragging my feet to work, trying to find the right partner so staying single to TRY TO enjoy wad its like to be single, so jus taking a break for myself. so confuse about my feelings fr anyone right nw.i tink im stil nt matured enough to commit to anything. wellll.....life goes on....haaha. maybe this is the time to set my life right, to study well, find a proper job. hahaha i sound like a 28 or 38 woman wen im jus 18.hahahhaha.

alright,sometimes i jus want to give up on everythin and sometimes i jus wan to burst all the way and be soooo successful.my resolution from nw til oct is to lose my weight til 42kg:)hahah.have lost 6kg so far.but stil not enough.i still look fat.so i must be determined:)

will see my frens soon wen holiday ends and sch life comes back.and i will be mugging cuz its my final lap to get the fucking cert and get outta ITE.yay!:)smiles and loves!

better to be with no one then to be with the wrong one.

i've moved...............on.

alright peeps....gonna start blogging again...the previous life is over,i tried changing it back to how it was, but its a one sided thing so since he agrees he does nt feel a thing for me, i shall move on.bye han pei:)hope you enjoy ur life...oh wells...hahhahahah..anyway its nt that he n i aren in contact.we still do.but right now its simple we're jus frens:)happy tat we both can actually stay as frens:)i hate rships where they break and the lines jus get cut.its kinda childish though.hahha.alright.right nw, i have been working at suki sushi almost everyday.aft sch,rush hm,work:)but life is better, my colleagues are very nice to me.hahha,and it work helps me not to think so much about "what happened"....anyway jus to add, for a period of time wen sch started aft the hols, daniel,my bro fren has been meeting me to join my bro and all aft sch.haha my frens probably think he's my bf or something.but nah......he isnt....haha.we are jus frens.yup.but currently,we no longer meet,cuz of my busy schedule and all..more like hanging out with my colleague a work:)oh ya,happy to be able to talk with most of my clsmates nw...i dunno y but aft i broke off,its like i cn finally talk to my clsmates, or rather they start talking to me.and i prefer it this way than to be quiet all the time in cls cuz i dunno what every1's tinking.hahahha.oh wells...........things change, people change,but life goes on.love you guys!!!!

-TAN BRIDGET DOMINIQUE IS DEAD-

To Tan Han Pei Bane

you have seriously forgotten our relationship,you forgot im waiting for you to go out together,when you do 'your things',all around you is shut.on that night you shouted 'you are so fucking irrtating and annoying' den u hung up i really wished you didnt mean it.because all i want is some time with you,if today you dun see it,someday you will.i tried understanding you,till the point i dun anymore.when wil you open your eyes to see that im not a soft toy or an object that you can forget about when you've got 'things to do',you said not contacting the whole day is normal.really it is?u sure?then let me tell you.its been four days that we haven spoken.its still fine with you?have you lost your feelings for me?if you have,tell it to my face.i dun wan to live in denial anymore,if you have someone you like,tell me,i'll let you go.but jus dun hold me by the thread where i know its breaking loose and when u need me,u pull me back,wen u dun,u slack the thread.if this is YOUR kind of relationship,i have nth to say..being attached is like not being attached at all.

to my immature frens

ok guys, this post is going out to the people around me to wake them up from their childish world of gossips...i cant stand this motherfucking nonsense anymore, kindly dun test my patience. whats fucking wrong with making frens?woo wow jus cuz two person take the same bus home together, walk to sch together,(obviously) cuz they were taking the same bus, talk in sch, MEANS we are fucking close and its soooo god dam surprising cuz we never were close before.comon la, fucking grow up pls! whats wrong with being frens again even thou we had a bad past.although there were alot of bitching about hating each other in the past, but now we decide to be frens,wads wrong with that, and in every angle, i dun see it as your concern when my own boyfriend doesnt mind cuz he jolly well know we are jus frens.plainly motherfuckingly frens.and talking about being attached, im fucking attached!so why the fuck will i wan to flirt around or whatsoever?jus cuz im frens with someone i used to hate,means im flirting and ya wow the timing is so fucking perfect that the other person jus broke with his gf.fuckers listen carefully k, i only became frens again with this person AFTER he fucking broke up.so it has nth to do if i was trying to fucking steal this person or wadeva, dun be fucking lame la, stop fucking bitching cuz you only make yourself look like a loser cuz u fucking ASSUME everything!so to those who are reading this post and you are feeling guilty den you should jolly well know im fucking pointing my finger at you!not my index:) my middle finger sucker!there again,2 set of three words,(fucking grow up), (stop acting immature).

alive dun wry.

yes people, im still alive n kicking.jus had a design test today, finished my counselling poster for the test.but the teachr dam funny..hahah....anyway, these few days kinda feel slpy all the time but dunno y.and the whether is sooo fucking hot my god!!!!.....also, did the weekly campus maniacness dj show in my sch today frm 1010 to 110....yup...will update more soon yeah?wanna play restaurant city on facebook.hahah.i jus started nt long but the game is kinda addictive:)loves!

1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY

went to bugis, hd pasta, went to ice monster, had desert than exchange gifts, he bought me a bracelet from backstage, a frying pan to fry egg and a box of biscuit, i gave him a cd....love u sweeetheartt!!!!!muackz!